Hold Me Now

by Stephen Gauer

October 2011
6 x 9 paper 288 pages
CDN $21.95 | US $21.95

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Finalist for the 2012 Alberta Trade Fiction Book of the Year

One Friday, Vancouver lawyer Paul Brenner has dinner with his son, Daniel. They talk about work, health, money, and music, and part ways. The following evening, Paul receives the phone call that is every parents’ worst nightmare: Daniel has been killed in Stanley Park.

Hold Me Now is an unflinching portrayal of a father’s grief, as Paul learns how very different the new world—a world without his son—will be for him. The investigation of Daniels’ murder, the trial, and the sentencing of the killer test Paul’s faith in the legal system. As both the media and the public protest the overt role homophobia played in Daniels’ death, Paul struggles to cope, and begins to form reckless and dangerous habits. But with the love of two people in his life who sustain him—his mother, Jean, and his daughter, Elizabeth—he begins to comprehend an incomprehensible tragedy, and forgive an unforgiveable crime.

  “A gripping story told by a talented writer.”—Michael Winter (Judge’s comments on “Hold Me Now,” winner of the 2008 Prairie Fire fiction contest)


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Reviews & Media:

“It’s fascinating at every turn and it leads to a beautifully rendered catharsis. Have a handkerchief handy.” – The Globe and Mail

Hold Me Now is a potent and poignant examination of a father’s grief. As irascible as Brenner is, I found myself drawn to him more and more as the novel unfolded and was honestly moved by his catharsis.” – The Vancouver Sun

“[Hold Me Now] is an examination of a truly tortured soul….This story is so masterfully told.” – CBC All Points West

“The book is worth reading at a time when our culture is wrestling with ways to eliminate bullying and increase tolerance for gays and lesbians. It is an accurate and devastating account of one man’s grief and recovery in the face of terrible tragedy, and a portrayal of the necessary path toward compassion.” – Event